26 weeks!

Twenty Six Weeks

So, it's been a little while since I have had the chance to blog. I really don't have a free second right now, but I'm making one. I want to be able to look back on this part of my life and just laugh. If I don't write about it, how am I supposed to do that?

We're 26 weeks pregnant with a baby boy! YAY! I'm thrilled. I'll be honest, at first, I had some MAJOR gender disappointment, but now...if this baby came out a girl, I'd be majorly disappointed again. Don't get me wrong. I am THRILLED, beyond THRILLED to be having this baby. I'm ecstatic that we've made it to 26 weeks and that next week we'll be starting the third trimester! Woo-hoo! This means chances are significantly higher that our little boy will make an entrance into this world, happy and healthy and super cuddly!

What have we been doing for 26 weeks? I've been going to a group for Moms on Tuesdays, gaining as much fresh wisdom as I possibly can about parenting, getting our house ready for little boy, getting his room ready, planning for the birth, going to doctor appointments, managing the house, budgeting for a new addition to our family, and so on. It's crazy how much work goes into having a child. I knew it was a lot of work, but seriously, nothing can prepare you for pregnancy and every single little thing that will happen. Nothing can prepare you for everything you need for the baby. It's just a learning process and a process in which I have learned to be SUPER patient. 

Over the past two months or so, we have learned that our little boy has a minor kidney issue. The portion of his right kidney called the pelvis is collecting more fluid than it should. The doctors don't think this is going to be a problem and keep reassuring us that it most likely will disappear on its own, but they are keeping an eye on him to make sure everything goes well and that his condition doesn't progress rapidly into something worse. We've been praying for this to turn around, and we have also started a nightly routine of praying scripture over our son. This has been so comforting to me. After having a miscarriage in May, I have been worried about him making it to term. I guess it's just a rational fear, but I'm asking God to take my fears away and replace them with His Truth.

So, we have about 14 weeks left until our baby's due date! YAY!! Am I ready? Heck no. There are times when I just want to hold him and see his little face, and then there are times when I just wish he would stay in my belly for another year, growing, becoming healthier and stronger, staying safe and warm. I guess the truth is, I'm just nervous about being a Mom. I'm nervous that things are going to go wrong, that I won't know what to do with a little baby boy, that I won't get any sleep, that I'll have a terrible time adjusting to a new life in our house, that Luke (my husband) and I won't ever get to see each other or spend time together alone ever again. Fear, fear, fear. It is my prayer that God proves me wrong in every single one of these situations, and that He supplies our every need and immeasurably more!

Hopefully I will have some pictures to post soon:) I'll try to keep this updated as often as I can! Thanks for reading!

Lots of Love,

Jen